I'm a sucker for a good lie.

ESPN RECAP

Tom and I rescheduled our coffee rendezvous!!
Yay for us.

Class was uber boring. No suprise there. I really like Karen, but she can be really boring.

Today is a snowday. Thats kind of cool. Except for Wednesday being my favorite day of the week. I would have really prefered to go to class today. I could have seen all the guys and hung out with Bri. Damn mother nature. I hope the roads clear up for tomorrow. I'll be doing a considerable amount of driving.

I caved and called Chad. I'm not really sure why. It was different. The whole tone of our converstation was differnt. I don't know if it was a good different or a bad differnt quite yet. Maybe I'll run into him while I'm at a Grand Valley this weekend, I dont know if that will be a good thing or a bad thing. I just dont know what's going on between him and i, but that isnt any differnt than it always was. Hopefully he'll keep his word and calls me.

I've been talking to Brian, a lot. Wow. I wish we would have went for it when he was here. Now he is sooooo far away, and I feel like trying is a bad idea. But I want to try so bad. I don't know what to do and I knwo i coul write for miles about.

Um. At work. Theres this new girl. SHE DRIVES ME NUTS. I dont like her, at all. Shes training right now. I think she is still in high school. I don't even know if I remember her name. I don't know if i should put it on my blog. I just want to clarify tho, its not an Ashley. I like the Ashleys.

I dont reallly know if there is anything else exciting going on.

I can't stand to think about a hear so big it hurts like hell

I was thinking i need to really sit down and reflect at the amazingness that was today
Pure amazingness.
It is all too sad that i cannot remember the last 'good' day i had. everything pretty much went right. but then again how can things go wrong when you start the day with donuts.
Yay for donuts.
Bri and I left super early for donuts today. They are always exciting. if you havent experienced a sweetwater donut, you need to. They are incredible. Blueberry cheese cake. MMMMMMMM.
Anyway, step away from the donuts.
We bought them for our class (dubious of us, is it not). That was pdc (pretty damn cool)
Speaking of class, tom :D I heart him. Hopefully he doesnt read this and have an allergic reaction to blogs. but i heart him. He's sick. its sad. I'm officially trying to convince him to go to vegas with me this summer. HOW SWEET WOULD THAT BEEEEEE??
Pretty sweet.
Anyway class on wednesdays is pretty sweet. Kevin is one of the best instructors i have ever had. I appreciate his knowledge so very much. but aside from actually learning that class is sweet in general. I got to see mike in the hall today, and he came and hung out in class. He is seriously one of the coolest people i have ever known. I miss him a lot and seeing him today only reminded me of that. Even the normal crew in that class is sweet: Me, Tom, Bri, Andrew, Chris, Alex, Paul, Sarah and best of all NO JODI.

Love me, Love me. Say that you'll love me

Hi.
I hate working.
Don't hate my job.
Just hate working so effing much.
Really.
Really?
Yeah. I just realized today,
I worked EVERY SINGLE DAY
last week.
Really.?
Sucked.
Breaking down.
Thats whats up.

Your Mom

That's all for now.

Quit playing games with my heart.

I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU.
Seriously.
I wish I could just tell you how much i think about you.
But i cant.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that you arent going to want me back.
Please want me back.
I deserve to have something work out. thats all.
I just want it to work out.
I've been looking forward to friday for the last week.
I cannot wait to spend time with you.
I reallly like you.
I really like you alot.

H is for HOT!!

Holy hot guys!!!
Today was an infected wound of hot men.
Hopefully i can stop drooling long enough.
So. here goes.

Last night at work Hot british guy.
Ive realized that most british guys arent hot because of their accent.
They are hotter with their accent.
The end.

Oh today.
Back to school
A la Escuela.
Loooooove it.
I didnt really realize how much i missed school
I miss school.
Anyway.
HOT GUYS
well probably not 'hot'
but hot by my standards.
Im stoked.
And. Tsquared is in my english.
That means Twice a week
Two times
TWO WHOLE TIMES A WEEK
For an hour and a half
I am graced with his prescence.
Pinch me.
:D

I'll keep you posted on the plethra of new oppurtunites that have just arisen in my life :D

I'm not gonna write you a love song

Dear Chad.

This is one of the letters i told you i write. Yes, one of the letters. Congratulations, you have one dedicated to you. I hoped I would never have to write one to you. But I am. I guess it is what you wanted. Sorry i didnt pick up the hints you were dropping like they were hot.

I had myself convinced that you had an interest in me. but you are typical guy. typical chad. typically not interested. typically not buying what i'm selling. I wanted you to be so much more than typical. I thought you are so much more than typical. It seems like we're so good together. I mean really, we get along great. Maybe i'm wrong. Maybe the teasing that you do you really mean it. Maybe the jokes werent jokes. Maybe fourth was meant to make me feel good. I'm pretty sure those arent maybes. I'm pretty sure those are positives. I'm positve you dont like me as more than me, more than a friend. I guess thats okay. I guess that is what i have to deal with right? You probably wont change your mind. And i can just imagine how great 3, 2, and 1 are. That makes me sad. Really sad. Thinking about how much you dont like me kind of makes me a little more angry than sad. but its not your fault. so i dont think im going to take it out on you.

Its probably me. Its probably my fault. I come on too strong. Thats not your style. I try really hard, if you only knew that i was trying really hard for you, for you to like me. Even if a little; i just really wanted you to like me. But you insisted on letting me down. That has got to be my hint that i'm not picking up right? The fact that you dont really call me at all. You dont usually text me first. You never really seem that enthused to hang out with me anyway, that is when we did actually make plans. I'm kind of let down. We have hung out once by ourselves, for like a half hour. That sucks. What could i possibly been thinking? I seriously should i have not liked you that much for not ever really hanging out with you. But we talk on the phone soooo much. I guess that could just be talking on the phone and not really being friends, or you even liking me. maybe you just answer and talk because you know im going to call/text. The more i read this, and the more i right this i realize i suck. and it is totally my fault you dont like me. you are perfectly nice guy. I'm a shitty girl. I wouldnt like me very much either.

I hope you read this. Bring it up if you do.
Telephones work in both ways.
I'm taking your hint and not calling.

Jordan.

P.s. I miss you, call me.